Archive for April, 2020


Do you have a quest? I thought I did but, something was missing. In the mid-80’s I left my job in Kentucky and moved to California. A lot of people around here thought California was where the”crazies” lived. In order to get a job there I had to send my college transcript, be finger printed and take some test. While all this was being processed I worked at a childcare center.

I have always loved nature and the Native American ways. For several years I wanted to do a vision quest. In the dictionary it describes vision as the special sense by which the qualities of an object (such as color, luminosity, shape and size) constituting its appearance are perceived through a process in which light rays entering the eye are transformed by the retina into electrical signals that are transmitted to the brain via the optic nerve. Quest is defined as an investigation or the act of seeking. A vision quest is a solitary vigil by an adolescent American Indian boy to seek spiritual power and learn through a vision the identity of his animal or bird guardian spirit.

I found a person qualified to lead me on this quest. I experienced things I had never experienced before. It was a six month process to ready myself. I fasted, gathered and made items I would take with me , dig a hole and spend the night in it on the side of a mountain.

The last thing I had to do was take the items I needed, go up on the mountain again and find a place level enough to spend three days and nights. I found rocks and formed a circle. I could not leave that circle until I was ready to descend. I had no food or water with me. It was truly a life changing experience for me. I gained a lot of insight about myself.

On the afternoon of the third day I saw my guardian spirit.

He lit in the top of a dead tree to preen himself. A feather caught the wind and blew upward. A blanket of warmth spread all over my body and I realized my spirit name. When I came down from the mountain I had a new quest. I have been living that journey ever since.

Has the pandemic given you quest? It has changed the way we are doing things. Maybe we were not paying attention to the right things. Think about it. What is your quest?

Now that we find ourselves in the situation we are in you may have a lot of time on your hands to think about things. I have two large dogs, one older and one younger, that are in a fenced yard. The younger one is very energetic and needs more exercise or I could never let him in the house. First thing in the morning when I get up I get dressed and take them out in the fields for a run. There is a pond and I have an old lawn chair that I leave there. This is my thinking and meditation time. If it is raining I take my large umbrella. I have all these beautiful sounds to put me in such a peaceful state of mind: the wind in the trees, choir of song birds, fish jumping in the water and, if it’s raining, the rhythm of the drops on the umbrella. I can’t think of a better way to begin my day.

As to what I think about while I am in my special place, I want to stay in the positive mode. I pray for peace, health and love for the world. As I was growing up the thought never crossed my mind that we would ever be where we are now. With God’s help and us caring for one another we will come through this and, I hope, be better for it. God gave us such a perfect home. We are the ones that keep messing it up

I have given you a couple of my thoughts and now I want to know what you think about that. Have a wonderful day.

Do people ever ask you this? Can you answer them right away? Do you have to stop and think? Can you even answer? Do they mean just one thing?

As I think about it, it was easier to answer this question when I was young, very young. As I have gotten older and older and then, just old, I have realized that I love more and more things.

When I was a kid my favorite ice cream was chocolate, my favorite pie was lemon ice box, my favorite subject in school was science, my favorite elective was band and my favorite pastime was fishing with my Dad and walking in the woods.

As I got older these things changed. After high school I went to college. That was like stepping into another world altogether. I was introduced to so many new things I had never experienced before. I was living with new people, facing new problems and I had to figure it all out for myself. It was a new freedom that was great and scary all at the same time. My favorites began to change.

After college I married my high school sweetheart. He was in the Marine Corps and was stationed in Florida. I had never lived this far away from home before . We started our family. When I was pregnant the first time I found that my favorite food was a Whataburger with everything on it.

Then my husband was sent to Vietnam. I had our second child now and I moved back to my home town and rented a house. I had never been responsible for anyone but myself until now and I learned so many things. Again, my taste changed, I was around new people and what I did with my time changed.

I have lived in 5 states and traveled to 47 of the 50 states. I can’t begin to count how many people I have met and the things I have done. I have traveled to Europe and Japan. I always try to eat a food particular to that country or state. As a rule I usually liked whatever I ate.

When someone asked me what my favorite of all these things I usually say I can’t pick just one. All of these have made up my life and who I am. I love my life. A lot of the people I have met over the years have passed on to another realm but, I am meeting new ones all the time. No one ever replaces anyone else. I have a mug that has Carpe Diem on it, seize the day. Even with all the turmoil in the world today we have to seize the day and make the most of it. Whatever you do today and tomorrow, etc, do the best you can possibly do.

I don’t mean do you save paper, glass, plastic and aluminum, I mean do you repurpose things. Before I throw anything away I ask myself, Self, can I use this to make something different? When you were growing up did you ever wear someone else’s clothes? They were called “hand-me-downs”. The clothes that I inherited usually came from my sister or some cousins that lived in our town. After I wore them, if they were still in decent shape, they were passed on to someone else. We were not such a wasteful society back then and my family didn’t have a lot of extra money.

I find it hard to throw things away if they are still in good shape. I look at them and say “Could I make something out of this?” Our landfills are full to overflowing now. In some places people are living on top of landfills. My water heater went out. It laid on the front porch for a long time. I kept looking at it knowing it could be repurposed. Finally it dawned on me, a grill. I found some steel pieces that could be legs, an old handle for the lid and chain to keep the lid from falling backwards when open. I found someone that could cut the lid for me and weld the legs on to it. He didn’t charge much to do this. The most expensive part was the steel mesh I got for the grill part. Here is my repurposed water heater/grill.

I have made several things before and since the grill but I didn’t make a photograph. Recently we had to replace a ceiling fan because the light fixture part of it stopped working. I took the blades off and kept them until I got an idea. I cut a half circle of 3/4 inch plywood and mounted the blades to it. I am not a graphic artist so a friend painted the image on the piece for me. It is mounted on my front porch. Here is my last refurbishing.

Next time you replace something stop and think if there is some way you could make it into something else and continue using it. This would save a lot of room in the landfills. If you can’t think of anything ask a friend for their ideas.

In these times of staying at home this would be a way to help you find the way to spend some of your time. I wish for you a day filled with good health and love. Talk to ya later.